At this point, it feels as though Gabe and I have traversed most of the major highways and gravel roads north of Highway 10. Yet each day we find ourselves barely nicking deer on new routes to the same places. For whatever reason, this feels symbolic.
It’s customary for us to move substantial distances around Wisconsin approximately every 2-4 days. Sometimes we caravan, other times we lollygag together. Sometimes in a vehicle with a/c and a tire light on; other times sweating the reality of summer and toting a scanoe atop the roof. Lilah becomes endlessly bored with the hours holed up in our vehicles. Occasionally a fly will trap itself within the vehicle and she comes alive for a small and slightly awkward hunt, unsure every time if she should in fact eat said wriggling, buzzing creature. A couple weeks ago temps and humidity danced around the same solid 80/90 level and I suddenly remembered, “Ah yes, these are the moments that made me.”
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Roxy Lake cabin and I have come to an understanding. After 2 ½ months of discussion her final requests are these:
- Care for the land.
- -The deer flies, ticks, mosquitos, and horse flies remind you that even the top of the food chain can topple, ie. David and Goliath.
- -Take care to cherish the lightning bug show. They’ll come Mid-June, rising from the soft soil floor to wink at the moon.
- -The lawn must be mowed every week plus three but only what is needed. Let the wildflowers take root through the tall grass and the milkweed shelter the monarchs. Ride that mower like the Harley you never had.
- -The bird choir may be mostly in the trees but Mr. Bunting has popped in a time or two. Fill the feeders, even just for the fashionably late.
- Clean my insides.
- My iron orange waters will clean you. True, they may stain your hair, shower, sinks, and clothes with a rusty reminder that you are now sharing below what the worms and roots made.
- -No one likes a sandy, grimy bed, especially your sweaty, sunburnt body crevices. Sweep on the reg.
- -Don’t wait to do the dishes or the ant army will return and maybe the power will go out again. Good luck!
- Do not overfish.
- Your luck upon the line depends on it.
- -Those you do catch for keeps must be thanked. Offer up in grace, in light of future full bellies.
- -Gabe will teach you how to humanely prepare each fish. Steady your hand. Use a sharp knife and carve straight. Save the tails, bones, and heads. Their bodies’ end will be a beginning, but earthbound.
In return, Roxy will nurture you into someone who can.
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In light of this “Great Awakening” Year of 2020, the full moon lunar eclipse in Capricorn, 5 planets in retrograde, and Sun awash in Cancer, I created a spread to encapsulate all things heavy in the sky as well as transposing on Earth as we speak. Through my short studies of each planet, their placements, and the important effects of retrograde, I hoped to translate each into a question that would resonate with all three aspects. I have included a picture below of my spread, the planets assigned to each, and the questions I formulated. I will include a short summary of my conclusions in regards to my specific spread but my thoughts seem to be ever-changing regarding this spread.
- Mercury in Cancer/retrograde:
- Where can you add more self love in your daily life?
(pull-8 of cups)
- Where can you add more self love in your daily life?
- Jupiter in Capricorn/retrograde:
- Within your chosen career path or journey towards it, what areas need more focus and/or diligent work?
(pull-2 of cups)
- Within your chosen career path or journey towards it, what areas need more focus and/or diligent work?
- Saturn in Capricorn/retrograde:
- What clear goals need to be brought into focus in your current life path?
(pull-2 of wands reversed)
- What clear goals need to be brought into focus in your current life path?
- Neptune in Pisces/retrograde:
- When taking an outside look at yourself, what past burdens come to light?
(pull-9 of cups)
- When taking an outside look at yourself, what past burdens come to light?
- Pluto in Capricorn/retrograde:
- What conscious or unconscious thoughts need clarity or release?
(pull-Knight of Wands reversed)
- What conscious or unconscious thoughts need clarity or release?
- Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Capricorn:
- What beliefs are no longer serving your pathway towards success?
(pull-Queen of wands reversed)
- What beliefs are no longer serving your pathway towards success?
- Sun in Cancer:
- Where can you use your innate nurturing side to better humanity?
(pull-7 of pentacles reversed)
- Where can you use your innate nurturing side to better humanity?
Right away you see a ratio of 3:3, cups to wands and an entire spread of minor arcana. You could interpret this as unstable emotion met with unstable energy. However, given that many of these planets currently reside in retrograde and the lunar eclipse is in self-loving Cancer, I would take this as a sign of feeling and reflecting on whatever emotion is needed, as it may be the only way to survive the insecurity of it all. Recognize, review, release, and reflect. The 7 of pentacles, the last card I pulled, is the only one with grounding, cautionary, motherly energy. One that begs you to trust, holds your hand, and keeps on planting seeds even when everything’s on fire.
Self-love, forgiveness, grounding practice, purging fears, deep self-reflection, and truly feeling every past and present emotion that harbors within us, is seemingly the message these planets intend upon us, whether we like it or not. The sooner we grasp the concept that huge societal changes are taking the reins and the world as we know it now walks the plank, the sooner we can get to tackling our inner egos.
A Homegoing 